I wouldn't get your hopes up 'til they finally get around to unbanning my regular account, because I planned on this being a throwaway until that three-month period ended and dang it, I'll wait out them finally unbanning the original account so I can just go back to the account I used to use until the day I die.
Yeah, but when you try to contact a person for several weeks trying to apologise for trying to HELP, wanting to know how he feels, if we can just forget it, etc. you really begin losing patience and respect when he just doesn't give a shit.
I'VE BEEN FUCKING WORRIED ABOUT HIS MENTAL HEALTH. IT HURTS ME, I'VE TOLD HIM THIS, AND HE DOESN'T SAY SHIT TO ME ABOUT IT. REALLY, TOP NOTCH WORK THERE, MY GUY, HOW FUCKING BRAINDEAD CAN YOU GET?
IT HURTS TO SAY, BUT I NEED TO FREE MYSELF FROM THIS, SO FUCK YOU, CWS. I DON'T CARE IF THIS IS A PRODUCT OF YOUR "DEPRESSION", BECAUSE IT SHOULDN'T BE YOUR INSTINCT FLIPPING PEOPLE OFF WHEN THEY TRY TO APOLOGISE.
There. You got that? Cool. Now fuck off from this forum.
@Karlolin: I'm pretty sure stalking me across several websites (repeatedly messaging me on reddit, Discord, and Steam, and piggybacking off particularly popular reddit comments by me in particular), taking the fact I didn't die as a victory, and then telling me to effectively fuck off and die when I return to the website you know me from won't exactly be winning you any friendships.
And some people wonder why I don't exactly use these forums anymore.
I needed a response, Cam, I stated this multiple times. A simple "fuck off" would have done perfectly, I believe I told you this as well. In that situation, silence is an insult worse than the gravest curse, and you knew that, so you said nothing. Then I tried to bait you for answers. That was really fucking shitty.
But I've never told you to die, CWS. If you died, from whatever cause, I'd take full responsibility. You will not believe that, nobody will believe that. Not typing this will make people believe that, but depressingly enough, it's the truth.
I've been lost, scared and confused for several months, but that won't make people change their minds. Whatever. Bye.
Oh, well, and the response thing was pretty much bullshit too, I acknowledge that.
It was a product of pure naivety. Actually, the whole thing started because I was naive. That's a life lesson, I guess. They say failure is the greatest teacher but I'd rather not take the pain that comes with it.
If somebody tries to reach out to you, and you completely ignore them, you can expect a fucking backlash. Especially if you're always moping around and making everyone feel guilty.
Twisting peoples words and pretending like nothing fucking happened isn't cool dude. You do it every time. Making everyone else seem to be the villian even though you're the one instigating it.
Karl wanted to help, but obviously ran out of patience with you. He was so worried on slack too. I'd justify his reaction as you were acting like a cunt by not responding.
I don't care for people who incessantly stalk me. It doesn't matter if they're "helping me" (read: effectively vomiting up the same 'depression help' results from google you get on page 1 and calling it a day) or if they're "worried"; because if they actually wanted me to care about them, they would've cared about me back when that mattered. Alas, that time has long since passed, specifically at the start of February of this year when the entire community here effectively banned my main account. Frankly, it comes across more as if he's more so doing this just so he can say to others "I helped a depressed person!" and get ego/brownie points--and I'm not pulling that out of my ass because that has happened to me earlier this year, and the fucker got away with it, too. And when my actual response after a long time is met with him angrily hating on me to the point of telling me to flat-out fuck off, well, jeez, I wonder why I don't want anything to do with that; it's like a massive red flag telling me "yeah, it was probably better to stay out of that".
Now if you excuse me, I'll be heeding your advice, Karlolin, like you oh-so kindly told me to, and fuck off, and be even less active on these forums than I already was. And don't act like this is coming out of nowhere, because frankly, you should have seen this one coming.
If you wanted to be my friend, you would've shown that when it mattered.