i'm in search of a religion, or something to believe in, that would actually help me find myself.
i've grown up in a strict Catholic home and have attended to a Christian private school, both at the same time involving me disagreeing with their beliefs. I share beliefs with Satanism (i do not sacrifice animals or anything, because that's probably why Satanism has a bad rep), I find Taoism and Buddhism interesting, and yet I don't think I'm willing to comply with a religion that says that God(s) made us, so we must obey.
going through various religious labels, i've clearly studied and tried a lot of these. for somebody who wants to find God, i have trouble turning to the right one.
i've been starting to think He doesn't exist, so i've been doing meditation for a while and focusing more on where i stand morally. i saw a quote somewhere that said "Morality is doing what is right regardless of what you are told. Religion is doing what you are told regardless of what is right." so i've been thinking really hard because at many times i can't get through situations alone.
anyway, i've been rambling too long and i don't know if this makes any sense. if it somehow does, thanks for reading. If you have any pointers, please direct me.
tl;dr : I disagree with Christianity, despite growing up in a Christian home. Help.